The first time I heard her speak, I could not help but want what she had. She overflowed with excitement about the power and freshness of Scripture. I thought to myself, I want that. When my otherwise quiet friend, talks about leading people in worship and uniting to sing over the spiritual battle, something in her spirit captivates me. As another talks about home and how we don’t have to simply hang on for heaven, but how at at home in the present, in the presence of God, I’m drawn in. When she speaks about how fear once held her captive, and anxious thoughts ruled her mind, but now how her heavenly Father pulls her close and commands her fear, something in me feels alive.
They all have something in common; they have a why — a passionate purpose.
I can hear Jesus’ words, “Apart from me you can do nothing,” and I intuitively know I cannot manufacture a why for myself. And I certainly can’t muster up passion.
But without my why I am simply fueled by need and want.
I’ll hustle to the gas station when my van needs gas (even more urgently when it reads 0 KM until empty), but I’ve never felt particularly enthusiastic about it. Most of us need no coaxing to chase what we want. While want feels more exciting, we also know that our own satisfaction has a short-life span. It is insatiable. I’ll find a way to get what I want, boredom will come calling, and I can be off chasing another empty well. Unless I find a different kind of fuel — my why.Read More